27, not too much...

I left more than two and half decades behind and many more yet to come. When I look backward it doesn't seems like a long journey. I can still remember my school days, one of the best days in anyone's life. The days when I used to bunk the classes or to scold the teacher anonymously. The time spent dreaming about my future. I remember days I spent in college, those days were the happiest days in the life. learned to achieve, learned to walk freely in world, learn to enjoy, in short learned to live a life. The time spent with friends in college will always remain as a brightest memory in the brightest corner in my mind and the friends I made in college time will always remain my closest buddies.
Once that was a time when I used to play on street with my brothers and sisters, and then came the time when  I was competing with them in school for getting higher marks. The summer vacation always remained best gift from god and to get a 100 rupee note from mother on birthday remained happiest moment in childhood. not to mentioned the endless fights with brother and sister without which childhood is incomplete.
I remember the time when I got selected for my first job and the feeling of joy that came with the news, it was my friends who were happier than me for the news and then came the time when I left them at the end of college, I was both happy and sad but life has to move on.
I remember the time when I joined my first job and the feel that came with it. For the first time in life I felt something in life and was proud. Nothing can make anyone happy then knowing that now you are capable of doing something for you by your own. The time spent with friends at work made the work easy. It is said that one will get good friends only at college but I got good friends at work as well.
Though like everyone I too faced ups and down in life but today when I looked back I just say "27 years, not too much. Bring it on life."

kabhi kabhi zindgi

कभी कभी जिंदगी,
अनकही बातें हैं कई
कभी बैठो साथ मिलके
देखो शाम भी ये अब ढल ही गयी..

हलकी फुलकी सी ये किश्नागी
तेरी यादों कि महक ही है जो
नींदों को उड़ा कर करती है,
मासूम सी  नादानगी,

हो सकता है कह न पायें हम पर
मगर रात तो पूरी बाकी है अभी
कभी कभी जिंदगी
अनकही बातें हैं कई

थी कोई तो बात कि
याद है अभी तक भी
तेरा झगड़ना
और फिर रूठ कर खुद ही मान जाना
ऐसा लगता है बात थी वो कल कि ही

अभी वक़्त है होने में सुबह
जाने का क्यों लेते हो नाम अभी
कभी कभी जिंदगी
अनकही बातें हैं कई

साथ बैठो फिर कब क्या पता
सुबह भी अब तो आ ही गयी ...
कभी कभी  जिंदगी.....

Ek or din dhala

एक और दिन ढल रहा है देखो 

जाते जाते सन्देशा दे रहा है  सबको 

ना  पाए आज कुछ तो क्या 

न बन पाए आज कुछ तो क्या 

आ रही है एक नयी सुबह कल सोचो 

एक और दिन ढल रहा है देखो 

करना तुम कोशिश फिर से 

ना बैठना राह में ऐसे तुम थक के 

आऊंगा मैं तुमसे फिर मिलने को 

डूबता सुआ सूरज कह रहा है देखो 

नए दिन में नयी सुबह की तरह 

आऊंगा मैं फिर नयी उम्मीद लेके 

अलविदा कहता हुआ, जा रहा है वो दिन देखो 

 एक और दिन ढल रहा है देखो 

Time will heal this

'Time will heal this' I heard this in my childhood and someday before I saw a real example of this. Though it made me shocked because the time spent was too less and wound was too deep but it healed quickly.

This happen with a friend of mine. We were good friends at office and usually talk to each other on chat at office. It was some years back that we were talking on chat and I realised that something is not good. I reached to her desk and talk to her for few minutes. She was talking about her boyfriend with whom she was now facing emotional difficulties as he was not able to talk to his parent about their relationship. In less than a minute I was able to notice that tears has arrived in her eyes and first tear drop is about to fall. If a girl goes teary for a boy like this then he is the love of her life and she can do anything for. This was my thought at that time and yes of course I was also right. At that time I console her and stopped that drop of tear to leave her eye by playing silly, though I got few punches (friendly) while doing that.

They both wanted to get marries but her boyfriend failed to talk to his parents due to some problems. She gave him enough time (years in fact) but he was not able to discuss that with his parents. Ultimately her family got her engaged to someone else. This engagement happen few years after that teary incident and they were in relationship just few day before this engagement.

When I heard of this engagement, the first thought that came to my mind was 'oooopss, it’s not him. God knows how will she forget him.' Now after just few months of her engagement I saw a photo of her on one the IM with her fiancée with the status written as 'missing you'. When I read that status firstly I got surprised because she healed from the wound of breakup and moved on very soon and then it gave me pleasure because time taught her to move on.

But this incident made me think twice about the teary incident that happened years ago. If she is fully with her fiancée now then  is it all the girls who forget their love of life very soon or was it just one exception.

To god: ek khavahish

Its been long that I posted anything on this blog. I was a bit busy in getting settled up in this new city Noida.
Here are few words which I written by keeping in mind a very young kid and representing his thought while he pray to god.

ख्वाहिश  

कुछ ऐसा हो मेरा  आना,
की रह जाए इस ज़मीन पर मेरा एक निंशा 

आने वाले लोग करें बातें मेरी,
कुछ ऐसा हो मेरा फ़साना।

ज़िदगी के सफ़र में मिले,

कुछ नया हर रोज़ सीखने को  

ऐसे ही नहीं है मिलती 

ये जिंदगी हम सभी को,

पाने को तो कैसे भी पा लेते है लोग मंजिलों को,

मगर ज़माना याद रखे, 

ऐसा हो मेरा मंजिलों का पाना।

कुछ ऐसा हो मेरा यहाँ पे आना  

की जीना सीख ले वो भी

जो खाली जानते हैं जिंदगी बिताना।

yaad hai!!!!

One day I was working at my office and as it was new office so was getting bore as well. With each passing moments I was missing my old office and office friends more and more. Then suddenly these words came out. Not sure to whom to dedicate this....

एक दिन की ये बात है

बड़ी ही खूबसूरत सी वो याद है 

हुआ था कुछ ऐसा उस दिन 

हर पल एक अजब सा एहसास अब मेरे साथ है 

एक दिन था वो जब देखा था मैंने दिन में रात को होते हुए 

चांदनी में बरसात को आते हुए 

कुछ थी कशिश तुम्हारी  आँखों की 

या फिर था वो कोई सपना ही 

देखा था मैंने दिन में भी तारों को छाते हुए 

दिल करता है की बिता दूँ उसी एक दिन के सहारे जिंदगी ,

मुस्कराता है कभी ये दिल उसी एहसास की याद से 

और करता है इंतज़ार कि वो बारिश हो जाए फिर कभी 

Independece day.. a country of dreams

It was independence day yesterday and I was thinking what we have achieved in past years. The words came out automatically for this progress which have done in making our country:

सपनों का वतन 

एक देश था मेरे अपनों का,

गाँधी और भगत के सपनों का,

वो देश जो होगा सपनों का जहाँ,

हर कोई होगा अपना 

पराया न कोई होगा वहां 

देश जो था उनके सपनों  का जहाँ,

खो गया है जाने आज कहाँ 

जो धरती कभी थी पूजी जाती 

उसी पे आज खून की नदियाँ है बहती

सबसे आगे रहते थे जो किसान,

मजबूर हैं आज लेने को खुद की वो जान

जाओ जहां भी रहते थे सभी प्रेम से 

आज देखो जाति  के नाम पे लड़ रहे हर एक से,

जनता भी तो थी हमारी भोली भाली सी,

रिश्वत दे दे कर आज कर चुकी अपनी झोली खाली भी 

एक देश था मेरे अपनों का,

गाँधी और भगत के सपनों का,
आएगा फिर एक दिन,
जब होगा ये भारत देश महानों का