Ek or din dhala

एक और दिन ढल रहा है देखो 

जाते जाते सन्देशा दे रहा है  सबको 

ना  पाए आज कुछ तो क्या 

न बन पाए आज कुछ तो क्या 

आ रही है एक नयी सुबह कल सोचो 

एक और दिन ढल रहा है देखो 

करना तुम कोशिश फिर से 

ना बैठना राह में ऐसे तुम थक के 

आऊंगा मैं तुमसे फिर मिलने को 

डूबता सुआ सूरज कह रहा है देखो 

नए दिन में नयी सुबह की तरह 

आऊंगा मैं फिर नयी उम्मीद लेके 

अलविदा कहता हुआ, जा रहा है वो दिन देखो 

 एक और दिन ढल रहा है देखो 

Time will heal this

'Time will heal this' I heard this in my childhood and someday before I saw a real example of this. Though it made me shocked because the time spent was too less and wound was too deep but it healed quickly.

This happen with a friend of mine. We were good friends at office and usually talk to each other on chat at office. It was some years back that we were talking on chat and I realised that something is not good. I reached to her desk and talk to her for few minutes. She was talking about her boyfriend with whom she was now facing emotional difficulties as he was not able to talk to his parent about their relationship. In less than a minute I was able to notice that tears has arrived in her eyes and first tear drop is about to fall. If a girl goes teary for a boy like this then he is the love of her life and she can do anything for. This was my thought at that time and yes of course I was also right. At that time I console her and stopped that drop of tear to leave her eye by playing silly, though I got few punches (friendly) while doing that.

They both wanted to get marries but her boyfriend failed to talk to his parents due to some problems. She gave him enough time (years in fact) but he was not able to discuss that with his parents. Ultimately her family got her engaged to someone else. This engagement happen few years after that teary incident and they were in relationship just few day before this engagement.

When I heard of this engagement, the first thought that came to my mind was 'oooopss, it’s not him. God knows how will she forget him.' Now after just few months of her engagement I saw a photo of her on one the IM with her fiancée with the status written as 'missing you'. When I read that status firstly I got surprised because she healed from the wound of breakup and moved on very soon and then it gave me pleasure because time taught her to move on.

But this incident made me think twice about the teary incident that happened years ago. If she is fully with her fiancée now then  is it all the girls who forget their love of life very soon or was it just one exception.

To god: ek khavahish

Its been long that I posted anything on this blog. I was a bit busy in getting settled up in this new city Noida.
Here are few words which I written by keeping in mind a very young kid and representing his thought while he pray to god.

ख्वाहिश  

कुछ ऐसा हो मेरा  आना,
की रह जाए इस ज़मीन पर मेरा एक निंशा 

आने वाले लोग करें बातें मेरी,
कुछ ऐसा हो मेरा फ़साना।

ज़िदगी के सफ़र में मिले,

कुछ नया हर रोज़ सीखने को  

ऐसे ही नहीं है मिलती 

ये जिंदगी हम सभी को,

पाने को तो कैसे भी पा लेते है लोग मंजिलों को,

मगर ज़माना याद रखे, 

ऐसा हो मेरा मंजिलों का पाना।

कुछ ऐसा हो मेरा यहाँ पे आना  

की जीना सीख ले वो भी

जो खाली जानते हैं जिंदगी बिताना।

yaad hai!!!!

One day I was working at my office and as it was new office so was getting bore as well. With each passing moments I was missing my old office and office friends more and more. Then suddenly these words came out. Not sure to whom to dedicate this....

एक दिन की ये बात है

बड़ी ही खूबसूरत सी वो याद है 

हुआ था कुछ ऐसा उस दिन 

हर पल एक अजब सा एहसास अब मेरे साथ है 

एक दिन था वो जब देखा था मैंने दिन में रात को होते हुए 

चांदनी में बरसात को आते हुए 

कुछ थी कशिश तुम्हारी  आँखों की 

या फिर था वो कोई सपना ही 

देखा था मैंने दिन में भी तारों को छाते हुए 

दिल करता है की बिता दूँ उसी एक दिन के सहारे जिंदगी ,

मुस्कराता है कभी ये दिल उसी एहसास की याद से 

और करता है इंतज़ार कि वो बारिश हो जाए फिर कभी 

Independece day.. a country of dreams

It was independence day yesterday and I was thinking what we have achieved in past years. The words came out automatically for this progress which have done in making our country:

सपनों का वतन 

एक देश था मेरे अपनों का,

गाँधी और भगत के सपनों का,

वो देश जो होगा सपनों का जहाँ,

हर कोई होगा अपना 

पराया न कोई होगा वहां 

देश जो था उनके सपनों  का जहाँ,

खो गया है जाने आज कहाँ 

जो धरती कभी थी पूजी जाती 

उसी पे आज खून की नदियाँ है बहती

सबसे आगे रहते थे जो किसान,

मजबूर हैं आज लेने को खुद की वो जान

जाओ जहां भी रहते थे सभी प्रेम से 

आज देखो जाति  के नाम पे लड़ रहे हर एक से,

जनता भी तो थी हमारी भोली भाली सी,

रिश्वत दे दे कर आज कर चुकी अपनी झोली खाली भी 

एक देश था मेरे अपनों का,

गाँधी और भगत के सपनों का,
आएगा फिर एक दिन,
जब होगा ये भारत देश महानों का

Darkness...

अँधेरा  

अँधेरा भी ख़ूबसूरत है,

ये सोते हुओँ को जगाता है,

रोतों को सुलाता है,

जब कुछ समझ  में न आये तो 

निराशा को भी यही भुलाता है।

अँधेरा उम्मीद भी लाता है,

उजाला  तो सिर्फ तरक्की  वाले लोग ही दिखाता  है,

 मगर अँधेरा तो पिछड़े हो को भी साथ ले आता है।

अँधेरा एकता का सन्देश भी लाता है,

उजाला जो कई रंग दिखलाता है,

एक अजीब सा भेद भाव फैला जाता है ,

ये अँधेरा ही है जो सबके लिए बराबर से आता है,

रात के धुंधलके में सब कुछ समेट सा ले जाता है।

ये अँधेरा ही है जिसके जाने का गम नहीं होता ,

यही है देता वो तसल्ली तो उजाला नहीं है दे पाता।

आता हुआ वो अँधेरा और जाता हुआ वो उजाला,

एक नयी आने वाली वाली सुबह का ऐसे कुछ पैगाम देता है जाता,

की मन उस पल में कही खो सा जाता।

खूबसूरत है ये अँधियारा.

आभास दिलाता है ये हर पल कल है एक नया उजियारा ।

Quest...

Life... what is wonderful creation of god, sometimes it gives pain just to prepare us for moments full of joy.

I heard this many time and up till now believed in this. But from last few days I started to think and now this all seems like something from a person who haven’t seen people suffering from pain.

This stuff seems good to people who has money to fill their stomach but for the really poor people who spend their whole day struggling for food merely know the meaning of happiness. The happiest day for them in the one when they get enough food.

This stuff is also good for the people who do not have incurable disease because for those people who have anything like this every next day is the day when they have to die. The fear is so much that they forget to live and enjoy the life.

There are many people in the world who have deficiency of a person in their life. The person can be child for a married couple or a sister who does not have a brother or someone who does not have parents. I have even seen people who suffered all of their life because of lack of love in their life.

Life is good for the people who has all the things in their life and miss only very tiny stuff but for those who already have nothing in their life they have to find their source of happiness in other things. That too doesn’t last too long in most of the cases but that’s what life is. It is the quest for happiness and everyone gets his share sometimes it is big and sometimes it is small.

Goodness in god

I heard it somewhere that god always watch everyone and keep on doing things which are good for us.

I was totally lost and life seemed to difficult to live. Last few days were most difficult for me. Difficult more than the day when I got my 4th semester result. I have lost all the hope and turning to something which only think himself. I wanted to be left alone for myself and that is really very easy to be because if this world never care about the people who doesn’t care about themselves.

But then something happened. I got a new friend to enter in my life. And I am still surprised that how just touch of ones' can change life of another person. I just met this person accidentally though we knew each other from few months but came in actual contact from last few days only. I have not seen a person so full of life and as it is said that when you are full of life everything which is near you will get alive. Same happened to me.

Though I am still in the middle of a tragedy and earlier I thought that it won’t be easy for me to forget this but now it seems like I will survive. With good friends anything can be achieved and every problems can be achieved.

some time.. no time... waiting time

Sometimes some time becomes endless waiting time. This was something happened to me one day.

It was Sunday and as usual I was totally free. I was not in mood of doing anything but just to meet up a friend of mine who was accidentally my best friend. I was in that mood because it was friendship day and most probably the last one to spend together as she was engaged to someone and was supposed to get married soon. And the same which happen to all friends of a girl after she got married I was ready to be vanished from her life. Yes, friends vanishes from their life because they do not even get time for themselves so thinking of friends is a matter which is out if discussion.

So, in the very morning (my day start at 9:30 AM) I texted this girl asking if she has anything planned for herself. I knew one thing about this girl that though I consider her as one of my closest friend but she do not have that much affection to me. For her I was just another friend or in better words hardly a friend. She knew the fact of being her my closest friend and to respect my feelings she used to gave me a bit attention. That day I got a response from her "no, will tell you in sometime. BTW happy friendship day" and I greeted her back for friendship day.

That message from her made me thought that we are going to meet up and I waited for few hours then I realised that this sometime is getting longer so I went out and had lunch. Till now I have realised that she is going to take time to respond because as expected I has to be in the bottom of her list. I called up a friend and asked where he is and then went on to meet him just to find that he was already going to some wedding. Then I decided to spend the day without thinking about her and headed to a mall. I decided to do that because I thought if she called up then we can meet at that mall as she liked that place.

Its been just half an hour that I was roaming around in the mall and then I got a call from another friend. He wanted to meet me and I asked him to come to the mall. He came and then for the rest of the day it was two boys ogling at the girls.

Till the evening I became sure that the some time is not going to end. Though I texted her sometimes in the day but did got response just of one. I was angry from inside and not on anyone else, it was me upon whom I was agree. I was thinking why I gave that girl so much importance if she doesn’t give the same in return but from inside I knew that I cannot ignore her after all she was one of my closest.

I was fed up of waiting till this time and wanted to be alone so I escaped from this friend I was with at the mall by making an excuse. I just wanted to be alone that time and did not wanted to talk to anyone. I reached my home and talked to my mother for some time. No matter in what condition you are, talking to mother will always give you a special kind of relief. Same happened to me but still I was not fully well so decided to watch a movie one computer.

After watching the movie I went out for the dinner and while returning from Dinner I got call from a friend. It was the one who went out for the wedding. He was calling me to meet up. I took a u-turn in few minutes I was at his home. We went to some place of some other friend and spend some hours with them.

When I  reached home clock was ticking at 12 but I was yet to get response of some time. Sometimes we know what others value us but still we make mistake of hoping from them. I know it was difficult for her but she would have told that to me in the first message itself that she might not get time to meet up.

I knew that her time was important and did not wanted to waste her whole day with me, it was just that I wanted to meet and greet my closest friend on friendship day.

Whatever that had happened between us she is still my closest friend and if its the matter of finding value of some time, that I will surely find out some day....

Hadicapped... not actually

It was a normal day and I was coming back from my home to the city I live. I was waiting for my train to arrive at the railway station and as it was the station of a small town not much of crowd was there. As I was waiting for the train I suddenly saw something which made me think.

I was that there was a little boy on the railway platform who had a girl with him on a wheelchair. By looking at them they seems like brother and sister. They wanted to cross the railway line to go to another platform and they could have done it by crossing the railway lines directly without using the foot over bridge as most of the public was doing there but to my surprise they choose the option which was a difficult one. They choose to go via foot over bridge which only had stairs and difficult to cross by person on a wheelchair.

I watched as they reached the stairs, the girl pulled out a stick a with the help of her brother and the stick she stood up. Then slowly she release shoulder of her brother and took the support from railings. Though it was difficult for her to stand she slowly started to climb the stairs one by one. The brother who was left behind looked at her sister for a moment and when assured that girl can take care of herself he then slowly folded the wheelchair and tried to pull it over the stairs. The boy was very young and it was difficult for him to pull that chair but he was continuously putting his efforts. It took almost 10 minutes for both of them to climb the half way of stairs.

I wanted to go and offer them help but did not wanted to show sympathy which in turn have insulted the efforts they were putting to cross the over bridge so I decided to remain quite.

I watched them and others who were crossing railway lines without the over bridge for few minutes and then my train came. Though I left the station but my mind remained there with that little boy and the girl. I felt that in the crowd of people who breaks laws every day they were both laughing at them.

It was the courage of a person which make him handicap and from the point I am seeing it seems like that girl was not handicapped. It was people who were crossing the railway line without the over bridge and were paralyzed. They both were challenging the world of those mentally paralyzed people and had a smile on their face.

Someday-A Dream

One day I was traveling and these words just appeared in my mind, though I completed it today but it was in my head from last few days.

एक दिन-एक ख्वाब 

बात है ये कल की,

आते हुए रास्ते में झपकी लग गयी।

एक अनोखा ख्वाब आया तब,

भौंचक्का हूँ मैं जिसपे अब तक।

जा पहुंचा था मैं उड़ के एक ऐसी जगह,

लोग कर रहे थे तारीफे अपने देश-ओ-वतन की हर तरह।

हम भी आखिर हिंदुस्तान के रहने वाले है,

बोलने की अगर चैम्पियनशिप हो तो उसमे गोल्ड मैडल लाने वाले है।

बस हिन्दुस्तानी खून ने मारा जोर,

और हमने हुंकार भर कर मचाना शुरू किया शोर।

बोले हम, देश है हमारा महान,

अलग है की नेता हैं यहाँ सबसे ज्यादा धनवान।

आँखें मूँद के चलना यहाँ सबको भाता है,

 अलग है की यहाँ का इंसान किसी पंगे में नहीं पड़ना चाहता है।

देश हमारा धर्मनिरपेक्ष का नारा है,

अलग है की आरक्षण के लिए गुटों का बंटवारा है।

सरकारें हमारी सीधी सादी  है,

अलग है की जेबें खुद अपनी भरती जाती हैं।

जनता हमारी भोली है,

अलग है की सिर्फ जाम लगा के ही बोली है।

लाखों कमियों वाला देश हमारा है,

अलग है की लहराते तिरंगे को सलामी देने को हाथ अपने आप उठ सा जाता है।

  

इतने में आँख खुली तो पाया खुद को सकते है,

फिर मैं बोला खुद से 'सपना ही होगा ये वर्ना नहीं हो सकता ये मेरे जागते में।'

Thoughts.... why people dont think...

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don’t expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart; but, if it doesn’t, be content that it grew in yours.

One of my friend sent this to me and at the first it looks impressive statement which can be very motivating for the people who loose in their love but then I went on to read it again and thought that why to keep growing love for a person till eternity if the person can never have that for you.
If one keep on thinking of same person then he will not be able to move on in his life and will waste most of the life for nothing. In a way that will be the wastage of life which god has given as a gift. No one has a right to waste it for something which does not worth. I know that this can be hurting for some people but if we think from other view then it is always better to move on in life because if you will not move on then will remain stuck with only one person and that could be injustice with the people who love you more than that person.

Sometimes it really become difficult to understand why just one person become so important in one's life that they even forget the love they got from their parents and friends. This can be a usual thing because their comes a time in everybody's life that they need a companion to share life with and they can not imagine another person as their companion. But if they just give it some time instead of wasting life they could find another mate and if not mate then they at-least can do something good to the society.

Grow the love in your heart and nourish it with the kindness but do not get lost in that love only and remember to find some time for those who love you and for yourself.
God has given the life not just to achieve something but he gave the life to fully enjoy it.

Ended up in something different....

All that comes out from a person having a tough time are the words of philosophy. The same happened to me as well. It was just a few minutes break (as it seemed initially) and I who from past few days behaving like a person with no interest in life started to putting words together on a paper.

And like it always happen, I wanted to write about my present situation but ended up with writing about something else. Anyway it also doesn't seems that bad and somehow related to my problem. So, here it is.

क्यों??

जब देखता हूँ किसी लाचार को,
जीवन पथ पर उसकी हालत बेबस बेकार को|

मन में उठ खड़ा होता है एक सवाल,
जो ले जाता है नींद बन के मन का शूल|

कभी लगता है कि नींद तो मुझे कल भी आ जाएगी,
पर उस इंसान की मजबूरी क्या कभी दूर हो पाएगी|

क्या वो फिर से साधारण इंसान बन पायेगा,
या फिर उसका मन कभी उस बेबसी को भूल पायेगा|

फिर मैं पूछता हूँ उससे जो कहता है खुद को भगवान,
जब देनी थी इतनी तकलीफें,
तुने फिर क्यों बनाया इंसान!!!

Tough time ahead....

All the philosophy comes out when a person is facing a hard time. For the last few days I am also undergoing in the same situation. I hardly make any status update on social networking sites but from last few days I have been doing that continuously and that too contained something very philosophical or very emotional. To add upon this, I who added just a few post to this blog have added multiple posts last few months and that contained even a self written poem. When someone starts doing this kind of stuff just consider him as going through something difficult.
It was the greatest confusion of my life which screwed up most of things which I liked. It is enough of the confusion in life and this is the time to move out of it. The problem of this confusion lied in my habit of not telling anyone if I don't like something. It was the habit of making everyone happy but now after I realize that it is impossible to please everyone, I have started to being more truthful and in other words will behave bad ;)
As a first thing I cleared up the stuff I had for a girl. She was a good friend of mine and from long time I had feeling in my mind that I liked her but from last few months I realized that I never liked her. So, I told her the truth (confessed) as we were just good friends because I never told her about my feelings. That resulted in a small fight but ultimately a delivered a peace in my mind.
The second thing I did was to tell a friend about her friend ;). Actually I hated that girl and all of the time I tolerated that girl because she was good friend of my good friend. But my quest of truth wanted me to tell this thing to my friend that I hated her friend and I did it. And this one did not ended up in a fight. I have big list of things to correct, lets see where does it go.

A news in the morning at train

It was a lazy morning and I was coming from home in the train.
Just than I realize the weather outside which was awesome and was a bit rainy, I then dropped a message to a friend of mine and asked her if she want to enjoy the day by taking a day off from work and hang out.
I expected her reply to come after at-lest one hour later but to my surprise I got an instant response from her and that reply was shocking for me as well. She responded that she was out of town and have a news for me but cant talk as she was traveling. I just then guessed what the news can be. I texted her back and asked if she got engaged and bingo!!! she was.
That news was so surprising after reaching my destination and tried to sleep for 1 hour but couldn't. This news gave me two feelings as an immediate reaction the first one was of happiness as she was waiting for this moment to come from very long and now her wait was over. Second feeling was an obvious feeling of tension because after marriage string between most of the friends becomes thinner and I did not wanted to loose her as she was one of my close friend, so I wrapped up both of these and texted her "Congo, BTW which city you are going to shift after wedding" and for some relief I got a city name which was near me. Now I am certain that this friend is not going to break the string because I will not let her do that after all she is going to be in the city next to me but one thing is for sure, life will not be same after her marriage because there will be friend less to hangout with.
This happened just early in the morning but for all of the day I was praying to the god to make life of this girl very happy and give all the happiness as she step in new life and starting a new phase of her life. God bless her.

An engineer.....

It was a routine day of my night shift when I got a call from network team that they need my computer for urgent resolution of a project related network issue. And dang!!!! I got few free hours but had nothing to do as I was alone in the office. and hence this creation came:

एक इंजीनियर

भोर के उजाले के साथ जब दिन निकलता है,
तब दुनिया को बदलने को कोई बिस्तर से उठता है|

सेहत की फिकर नहीं, ना ही चिंता खाने की,
लगी है धुन उसे तो बस कुछ कर दिखाने की|

कुछ नया करने को घर से जब निकलता है,
दफ्तर के काम को कर्त्तव्य समझ कर वो करता जाता है|

दफ्तर में भी आराम कहा उसने पाया है,
कभी सीनियर तो कभी कस्टमर, बस इसी में सर खपाया है|

रात के अंधियारे में लौटता है जो,
काम को ही पूजा मानता है वो|

फिर सोने से पहले करता है एक वादा,
की कल कर के कुछ है दुनिया को दिखाना|

अपनाया है जिसने नित्य नया करने की चुनौती को,
कहते हैं इंजीनियर  ऐसे ही कर्मयोगी को|